lol. I stopped seeing the doctors that could admit me then and there on the spot (to peads wards etc.) and avoided 4g like the plague. dr g gave up trying to get me there because i refused to take time off school, id already put in so much effort to be able to graduate that year with my friends by catching up on extra units of yr 11 work I was away for.
um yeah, im stubborn, i like to get my way..
thanks but u really really dont have to waste ur time worrying about me! xxx
cum off anon then! same i spent far too long in n out of there n peads and it whenever i enter the building to see my dietitian I feel weird/sad. pray 2 lord i never see/use a bed pan in my life ever again (tmi ew)
uh oh we gotta adelaide gurl on board
thanx I appreciate the time you took to write these and the sweet things you’ve said <3 I mean, and im sure you know this, It’s easier said than done, happiness and feeling worthy and what not. I mean, things probably are okay though, I’m not dead, I don’t like making a fuss or having people worried but then again your right, everythings so distorted still because this has become ‘normal’ and I don’t know any better?
um but yeah, I have been in treatment and I almost feel and I know it sounds weird but like too old now? too failed? the people there now all seem younger and in better need of it than I do, they are mentally and/or physically sicker. No one can force me to go back there now, force me to get a tube, force me to stay, and I dont think I can force myself to admit to needing help. anyway i need to shut up. thanks again xoxoxoxoxooxoxxo
I mean I should coz I probably loose followers each time I post an ask but idk, who would even read it? A while ago I started one but rarely post but I might start again? maybe if you want to ask things send em there!
just people things flashbacks my head making me feel shitty and inadequate 2 fat 2 function etc. much of the usual so not to worry. idk i just wanna disappear for a while. thank you for asking though xx